Birth-day

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We normally celebrate our birthdays with cakes, sweets, drinks and friends, close and not so close. We like receiving gifts, expensive or cheap. Meaningful or not.

This year, I'll spend my birthday with mum. Just me and mum. I'll bake her a cake and buy her a gift. After all, wasn't she the one that brought me into this world? Shouldn't it be her day instead of mine?

Eclipse

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I am the the sun that does not warm you

I am a rainbow that does not colour your life

I am the moon that does not brighten your nights

I am a star that is engulfed by the darkness

I am nothing but an eclipse in your heart

Gift

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Children are God's gift to parents. They are not a privelege but a responsibility. It is an entrustment.

Sometimes no matter how much we shelter and provide, no matter how much we plan and pray, no matter how much we give and offer, no matter how much we love and nurture, we still lose and fail.

If we lose and fail, if the gift is taken away, we cannot lay blame, nor can we despair. We can only hope that God will gift us another.

A friend lost a child today. I'm sure there will be more gifts for her.

Longing

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Too often we miss and long for people that are no longer with us. Shouldn't we also miss and long for those who are still with us and those that surrounds us?

Don't wait for them to go away.

Hiatus

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The last five month of hiatus has been nothing but sobering. Every cent count. Every bill is a pain. Every drop of petrol is precious. Every meal is a savoury. Sleep has become a wasteful chore. Ennui is a despised enemy.

Friends have become few but precious.

Life has a strange way of imparting indelible lessons. I'm living and learning.

Serendipity

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Sometimes we come across serendipities in our lives. It is up to us to make meaning of those serendipities. But we must be brave enough, strong enough and wilful enough to make meaningful meanings of our serendipities.

I am grateful for my serendipity that is you....

Fate (160208)

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I accept this fate. For my past sins have caught up with me. For my own undoings and wrongs that I can never and have not made right.

I accept my fate. For all that is inadequate in me, for my lack of perseverence and understanding, for my impatience and intolerance, for all the unhappiness that I have caused.

I accept my fate. For there is no more dignity left in me. For the insufficient love that I offered.

I accept my fate. For all the love that you have given me. For allowing me into your life for a moment.

I accept my fate. I accept all that you have given me and I thank you.

I accept this fate. Albeit at a time when I'm most troubled by the situations that surrounds me. For a long time, I've never felt so lost, unwanted, unloved and unintended.

I accept my fate......I have loved and I have lost....

Huddle

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I don't know a lot. Neither do you. Neither does anyone else.

But between us, we know a lot.

Let's huddle and share.

Pray

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I pray for love. I pray for tolerance and respect. I pray for compassion and understanding. I pray for peace and community.

I pray for muslims, buddhists, christians, hindus, sikhs and other beliefs. I pray that they also pray for the things that I pray for.

Late smokes

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Late at night. I smoke. Maybe too much.....

Life is too short. I light another one.